3April

i am back from counting the date that my face is swelling.. it has been 4th days!! how long it can takes to cool it down? i have been taking good care for them by reducing the impact when i drink porridge.

porridge for 4days isn't a joke man!! very sian already. when can i eat "good food" ):

i just watching tammy blog and i find that, her tooth extraction isn't that good too, it took her more than 5days to recover.. wonder if she have recover by now. cause if hers take so long, i think mine will be worst because i took 2 at a go!!

omg, been rotting at home since the day i extract the tooth. however, i don't feel that pain, just that the swollen part make me feel worst. (i can't really go out). i wonder how long it will take to reduce the swell man.. feel kind of regret of extracting out because it ruined my holiday.

SIP in coming, i have not much time to enjoy, i particular waste 4days rotting at home. tsk!! trying hard not to talk as much as possible.

pray pray pray!! let pray hard that swelling please go away. i will treat you even better with "good food" alright..

顺其自然吧!

25March - grow up please

i don't know what make me think of reading through most of my blog post - then i scroll all the way back to the front.

at that time, i am still writing about my eye-candy, then don't really know starting from when? i fall for him. in between, i remember there is still 1 short-term r/s that happen (suddenly). when i am in this r/s then i found out that i have fallen for another person but it is when he is gone, as i realize i am missing him more and more.

i remember that there is one show that i used to watch, it is saying about the r/s between a girl and a guy, they don't really know if they really love each other. so after 1 person left (when overboard to study). she then know that she is really missing him and found out that she is in love with him.

terrible right? anw i don't remember they got get back together, because they already let each other pass by that period. (meeting at the wrong timing) i guess, i am also like that? lol!

well, stop ranting. talk about today.

i am really sway!! i don't know why the water bottle's cap loose and drip into my bag. The worst thing is that, my camera is inside the bag, and now unable to switch on. ): hopefully my camera will be alright uh. i blame myself from the carelessness of mine. hate it.

in the evening, went to meet Js, ps, danny and adel for steamboat till a certain time, they was planning to go for a drink after that but then end up never. so we all went home after steamboat. i took bus myself till 68plus. i seat down there for half and hr, thinking of how to let go -.-". how stupid am i, no matter how i think, i feel more sad =x plus it is not solution just a thought. lame! then end up i feel like giving myself another chance. yet~ same thing happen again. fml! i shouldn't have try it in the beginning. ice-cream to reduce sadness then went home.

i don't know having a guy-best friend is so troublesome, most of my friend's gf/ex, most of them don't like me, or use me as an excuse for quarrel. i don't know what i have done to deserve all this. i am like so innocent, i also never show them black face, playing with her bf infront of them or what. i am just chatting along with them and hello. we didn't like go out alone or what also right? plus the thing is that, if we are going together, we won't be friend up till now right? -.-" sometime i just wonder why are they so childish. thinking that bf have gf then cannot have girl-friends? if you think this way, then good for you. you still haven't grow up. don't tell me you intend to give up on your friends for a girl/guy? sound like an alien but yea! some people think that way -.-".

&& i think people who delete people from facebook is childish too. unless you dunno him/her lah, but then you are the one who added end up you are the one who delete it? what is wrong with you? i don't add people who i dunno, i will just accept people who have most common friend with me. so yea. by doing all this, don't you think that you are too childish to act this way? or girls are like that? girls, seriously!!! don't be so childish lah, don't throw our girl face can!

okay, i am not pinpointing anybody. i am just stating the fact, if you don't like what is being say.. then just leave (right cross above). and don't put yourself in all this situation, i might not be saying you. i am just telling the majority people.

22March

Well, i think i should reflect on myself seriously.

I should change of what things use to be.. i was damn disappointed on myself and stuff around me. it includes friends, me, my appearance and guys.

Well, maybe i should start giving other chances and all, shouldn't bother about if that person is going to like me or what ah? like that, then i will gain more friend opportunity, other than that i will also know what kind of person am i looking for.

Next, people who already know me, or yet to know me. listen carefully, i am just like a normal girl who will also envy, jealous and blalala even if friends, i will also get jealous and disappointed.

You must be wondering, "in what kind of circumstances?"

1. Friends, if you ever going to plan something for outing, you better call everyone along in whatapps(group chat), if you are not convenient to do so, get someone that (you are close with) to help you ask (not those people who suddenly reappear in your life) if you get what i meant.

2. Guys, don't ever make use of girls to intro you "other girl", this is really irritating, i am sure if that girl want you to know more of her friends, she will do it without "you" asking. seriously if you wanna know more girls, you better ask guys to intro. (much more effective)

3. It is rude to interrupt while someone is saying something serious, even if you don't know if he/she is being serious, you can somehow follow up but not to interrupt with your own stuff. first time, maybe just careless, if it happen many times, it is just dumb.

4. All, never ever compare one with another.. especially between girls, if you ever did that, please say something nice to everyone. everyone is perfect in their own way. if the person ask it in a serious manner, then please say something positive before negative. at least it won't make the girl feel useless.

5. Guys, don't make girls feel that you are desperate in having gf (action speaks louder than words). sometime words is just a shell with no soul, but for people with action, you can see it through (furthermore i study psychology before therefore i know how people act).

6. It is never a good things to snatch people friend, it is good to know more people(being friendly), but somehow you have to keep a distance away, i don't believe people will happy if you are much closer with people who u know for few day or what (unless that person like you), although i know that sometime is about the fate and all (cause not everyone you can click with) but then u know what, it's about the trust.

Well, i don't know what should i say next. not sure if all this helps, but standing at a girl position. i think is better to understand some of them.

I not sure if it is my fault to born with this face (a good thing or bad thing) because there people who says that i look like china.

I am not going to insult them or what, just that it make me furious somehow. well, maybe 1 or 2 times is enough for a joke, but everytime and by saying it seriously doesn't seem like a joke but real. i wonder what problem is my face. why do people keep saying that. guess what, i am getting disappointed of my facial feature(bad thing). maybe because of this, my self-esteem will drop like free. (i am not kidding).

Thanks for making me feel this way, it hurts!

next, future.. i wonder what should i do for further, i haven't plan it yet. whether to continues my studies or to work. i know most people will encourage me to choose studies then working. But i am already 22years old this year (no joke). if i continue my studies, i would then be graduate at 27years old, by then.. i guess it will be too late to earn money. furthermore i also need to repay all the debt loan for studies. (plus, i have no ideas what should i study). so what should i do? i still got 1year to think about it.

next, relationship, seriously i wanted to give up on you. maybe i won't go drink bubble tea so often, as for "him", i am trying to give up. i not saying it for fun. this time round, i am serious. but i will still take him as a shield to reject people (maybe). other than that, i will let everything to take it nature.

okay, for now i won't intro anyone to anyone. unless i have no choice.

25Feb - lives goes on

YAY!! i am finally having a holiday!!!

HAPPY GIRL 93 =D

well, i shall start to love myself more by sleeping early if possible. i am going to take good care of my skin.. particular everything. shall sleep before 12 everyday "if possible" ugrhs, every time i say wanted to sleep early, start exercise regularly but my determination always went off. shall follow that then like that can be beautiful girl.

then i google, how to become beautiful/pretty

1. drink plenty of water!!

2. get enough sleep

3. go exercise

i think with this three point above.. it is hardly (so hard) for me to follow ):

but i need it!!

the way to love yourself better if to treat yourself good and also be confident with yourself =D okay i shall get going off to prepare to sleep now.

tata -xoxo-

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

GET IT

If he was into you, he would reply whenever he had the chance, even after 1 min if he had the phone with him and was available to text. -.-

To you

Dear you,

i have been trying to get rid of you out of my mind, but why are you keep appearing at the wrong timing.

every time, when you didn't reply my message, i assume you did it purposely

-i hate people who don't reply me and went MIA for nuts, even you are my friend but there is still a limit.

every time, when you notice other girl, i assume you are don't like me anymore.

- it's disappointed to see that you are noticing other girl, but you always did it.. i don't know if u are flirt or just being friendly.

but this assume will eventually disappear when you come close to me and treat me good. i am trying to tell myself that i am not going to fall back again, but your smile bring me back. i am trying real hard to ignore you. Do you know that?

right now, i give you back what you wanted, and you gave mewhat you didn't gave years ago. i think we don't owe each other anymore. Next outing, i will try to treat you real "MEAN".

from me!

3Jan - Virgo

VIRGO WOMEN

She is straight forward, reliable and gorgeous to boot. Your Virgo woman just might be perfection; it is after all what she strives for. Trust me when I tell you that when you fall in love with the Virgo Woman, you will fall hard. Are Virgo women hard to get? Sadly friends, it isn’t an act, they are hard to get. The trouble is she seeks perfection in everything. If you are less than that, then leave her alone or watch her as she runs fast away from you.She is analytical and precise. Everything needs to be just so in order for her to be happy and move on. If it isn’t, she is not going anywhere until it is. For all that she discriminates she is also very considerate. She regards all involved before she makes a move. The Virgo woman has an extraordinary eye for detail and will exhaust every avenue, including herself, to make sure things go as planned. Being punctual and reliable is a must for her. She’s particularly fond of routines and lists. She probably has a list of her lists to keep track of them. For all the proficiency, she is fairly reserved and shy. She is uncomfortable with too much attention and perhaps embarrasses easily.

We haven’t scared you off? That’s good because a Virgo woman is worth the work.

You will need to become friends with a Virgo woman before hoping to seduce her. Knowing the quirks of her sign will get you far. Her sign is an intellectual sign which makes her a highly practical person. She is calm, collected and will never display any unreasonable or emotional outbursts in public. Though she is viewed as having little to no emotions, you will be surprised that she has a quick wit and can find humor in most things. Not only does she have a quick wit but empathy toward others you wouldn’t have expected.

Virgos tend to worry too much. So to seduce your Virgo, help her to worry less. Keep things fun and light. Bring laughter, she needs it and sometimes forgets that she can. They don’t generally like off the wall, crazy experiences or large crowds. Keep dates traditional and old fashioned (dinner and theater) until you learn more about her. Virgo women love nature so invite her for a weekend away in the country or hiking in the mountains. Let her see you as the person she can relax with and find freedom from the mind that is always running. Use your time as friends to learn her limits; it will help you make a better partner later.

As much as you may want to, don’t rush her in anything. By now you will see what a gem she truly is and will want to take it to the next level. Let the friendship naturally grow to love, she will let you know when you get there. A Virgo love needs a little time to develop. As in all things, she will analyze every step along the way to make sure its perfection. As a result do be surprised if she seems hesitant and stand-offish. She will seem that way until she’s comfortable with a partner. So when in public, keep displays of affection to a minimum. Wait to show cooing love until you get her home.

The Virgo woman is a particularly loyal person and tends to be traditional in their outlook. Giving pink roses will reach her heart and she will soon want to open up to you. Virgo females want a partner who respects and understands them. She wants someone who is also intellectual and is just as organized as she is. She demands her partner to be not only devoted but reliable and sincere. Let your creativity shine. Wite a poem or paint her a picture. Show her that you want her and that she is of high value to you. She will in turn do the same. She also places very high value on her relationships and the sex she has in it. She likes to keep her sex life private and behind closed doors.

Once a Virgo woman falls for you, you will never choose to leave. She will devote herself entirely to you and will make you feel as if you were only one ever. It is then when you see just how special she is. You will see the true measure of her strength and femininity which is superior even to that of the Aries woman. It is here where the time and effort you put into courting your Virgo pays off. You will have no doubt she wants to love you and she will have no problem showing you all the ways she wants to. Behind closed doors with your Virgo, you will understand the term “let the games begin”.

To keep her, understand that is that she is always “on.” Even if she isn’t at work or home, her mind is always racing. This is a woman that you may have to force her to relax. As a perfectionist she is always thinking of ways to improve things or critique her most recent activities. She will need someone to know when she near her limit and has to recharge. That said she hates wasting time or sitting still. Be creative in your down time with her. If you can figure out how to accomplish something while “relaxing” then she may never want to let you go.

She is a rather strong woman, stable and confident. Virgo women will seem dreary and reserved but they simply are very careful with choosing the friends and lovers they spend their lives with. Their attitude towards life and love are quite practical. She needs no fuss, just plain honesty and sincerity. When she loves it is fully, honestly and passionately. You will never want for anything with your Virgo woman. Your house will be a home and your love will always be returned. Consider yourself warned though, let her and she will give you Heaven on Earth.

How Virgo am i (:

1Jan - New Year!

HELLO~ HAPPY 2012 everyone..

it is a new year, with a new start.. remove your clutter in life and have a great year ahead!! don't ever think of the past anymore. it is the past, it might be a memories but it won't make you happy.. so why cling on it and make yourself so unhappy right? give yourself time to forget and forgive. this will make your life much more wonderful. for happy memories, you can choose to let them stay but don't compare with currently because sometimes it just won't be the same.

although i like 2011 because there is 11-11-11 or 20-11-2011. it look like so nice but perhaps, that year isn't really that interesting. there are ups and downs. cried and laugh before. although it doesn't seem really bad to me but i still wish that 2012 will be better than 2011. because what ever in the past cannot be amended and what ever for the future will be looking at how you going to make it worthwhile.

do whatever that doesn't make you regret and live with it. take whatever risk that you think is worth for you to do so. get the chance to tell people around you that you cherish them alot, give them enough time to spend with you no matter how busy you are. get yourself a partner(if possible) if you are single to reduce your loneliness or whatever it takes to go for who you are.

whatever you are going to do for coming year ahead, go for your own will and don't ever look back. this time round, for those who didn't participate in my life, come'on i am still waiting and for those who really didn't want to participate, bye is all i can say, i hope that whoever stay will continue to stay even longer(:

i believe that people who are meant in your life will eventually always be there no matter what because they will be those who will cherish you no matter what had happen!

lastly ! HAPPY 2012 again. =D LOVES x3